|Posted by Alyssa on May 12, 2015 at 6:05 AM|
I have changed more in the past three months than the past three years combined. God has been working on my pride, my anger, my self-criticism, my vulnerability, my love, my trust, and my freedom to be myself.
I am more in tuned with the Spirit, more in love with Christ, and more aware of His presence than ever before.
He has been hard at work in me and I am exhausted. This is the joy of saying yes: serving a God who just wants to love you. He wants the absolute best for us. He brings us through hard times—forces us to face major heart issues—because He wants us to give all our junk over to Him so He can begin restoration.
This past weekend the JAM girls and I attended a ladies camp put on by a local church. God touched on various areas of my life, all revolving around the theme of intimacy with Him and with His people. It was an exhausting weekend.
In one of the sessions, the speaker said, “You can only give the love you’ve accepted.” She went on to explain that so many of us approach God asking for Him to fill our thimble with His love instead of bringing a giant bucket.
Then she went even deeper. “Do you love yourself?” I was shocked to discover that my answer was no. I had believed the lie that I was unlovable. I had been asking Christ for such a small amount of His love because I believed that I didn’t deserve any more. The speaker said, “The Bible teaches, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ We’re not loving our neighbors because we’re not loving ourselves!”
What would our world become if we learned to love ourselves as God loves us?
Seriously, think about it!
How would this one truth change our relationships, our community, our country, our churches? We emphatically say our world needs love but ignore that fact that WE are the problem. We are part of the world, are we not? God doesn’t ask us to do anything He hasn’t already done so why do we think we have such authority to demand something of the world we have yet to implement in ourselves?
“Okay, but how?”
I don’t have the answer. I can’t overcome 24 years of lies in one day but I CAN accept that He loves me; truly, truly loves me. Sees my ugly, sees my junk, suffered and died on a cross for me—loves me.
And I’m not the only one.
You were a cracked, broken jar of clay. When you accepted Christ He presented you with a brand new jar but you continue to cling to the old.
You are holding on to your sin, your past, your perceived imperfections. You are holding on to a lie that says you are unlovable.
Let it go!
Smash that jar.